April 28th, 2004
Self-imposed break
Ok, so my self-imposed break from stuff failed horribly. Here I come ... crawling back to my Tabulas. I've shut down my LJ and Xanga, and I really don't have an interest in resurrecting either of them, so I'll post exclusively here.
I don't really want to get too much into why I went into a self-imposed break, but I really needed to change my life. Things are just really starting to get confusing and out of control for me ... and I just feel so helpless and lonely about it all.
In any case, I realized today to just be myself. Other people seem to have confidence in my abilities; I just need to quit self-doubting and do what I love. If I pursue what I love with ambition and discipline, I will achieve success.
So I need discipline. I've quit playing poker online, for it sucks too much of my mental awareness and time away from me. I pulled out all my money from the site ... and now I will focus on work.
I've reached a renaissance in terms of my projects; with amazing clarity I can see what needs to be done (both in the short-term and long-term) for all my projects ... and I will begin executing my plan ... now.
With the return of my work ethic, expect a lot of work-related posts... :)
A song strangely fitting:
"i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately
all i have to do is listen to me and have peace of mind..."
I don't really want to get too much into why I went into a self-imposed break, but I really needed to change my life. Things are just really starting to get confusing and out of control for me ... and I just feel so helpless and lonely about it all.
In any case, I realized today to just be myself. Other people seem to have confidence in my abilities; I just need to quit self-doubting and do what I love. If I pursue what I love with ambition and discipline, I will achieve success.
So I need discipline. I've quit playing poker online, for it sucks too much of my mental awareness and time away from me. I pulled out all my money from the site ... and now I will focus on work.
I've reached a renaissance in terms of my projects; with amazing clarity I can see what needs to be done (both in the short-term and long-term) for all my projects ... and I will begin executing my plan ... now.
With the return of my work ethic, expect a lot of work-related posts... :)
A song strangely fitting:
"i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately
all i have to do is listen to me and have peace of mind..."
Allen
you do need to stop self doubting yourself, i don\'t know how many dinner table conversations i\'ve had with people about how great you\'ll be. but don\'t even worry about all of that, just do your thing man.
lillia (guest)